After many steps forward what happens when you take a step back? MKMMA Wk 20

After many steps forward I feel I have made a pretty big step back.

I was so glad for the quote from a friend of mine who has absolutely no idea how I am feeling right now, (nobody but God knows), yet he sent me a text message today with the following quote. “…do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you…” Isaiah 41:10

Not long after I read the following quote from Emerson on a twitter post from Mark J, ‘Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.’ 

Between them they were a lifeline and since you are kind enough to take an interest in my writing I will tell you why.

I have been really enjoying the MKMMA ride these last four or five months, I have been learning so much and at times felt I was almost flying into the new life of the person I intend to become. This last week I have been brought down to earth with a bump. I can’t say it’s a reality check because quite honestly my reality has changed, but I suppose other peoples reality is still where it was and now there is a gap between us  almost the size of a canyon.

The trouble is many of the people on the other side of this canyon are important in my life, (I don’t mean my wife because she understands me better than anyone), but nevertheless, important people with whom I am deeply partnered and associated are now thinking in a completely different way to me. It seems I have left them behind, at least for the moment.

I see an amazing new future with greater goals than ever before and aspirations that I know will greatly enhance our fellowship and through them our whole city.

We all agree that without a vision the people perish and for years the vision has been to hold on,  just keep everything ticking over, be faithful and guard our post…but now I see a window of opportunity that we must walk through while it is open… it will not stay open for long…but I see us advancing and taking ground…and I include all of us in the vision…and many people we have not even met yet will benefit from our boldness too.

Sadly the reaction I received last week from I man I love and trust has shaken me to the core. I know the root of his reaction was fear and not necessarily his own fear but he spoke strong yet negative words to me in a way he never has before.

I understand that I want to push the envelope, I realise its a big vision and it is possible that it will prove to be too big but we have to try, and if we try and fall down half way we will still have made a huge impact on our society.  However, instead of a peaceful discussion with council of caution and patience there was a sharp rebuke for even considering such ridiculous ideas.

So it leaves me with a dilemma regarding the three most important flash cards I am looking at and speaking out every day. In fact it has brought confusion and disorder in what was a seemingly straight forward growth progression.  I should keep it to myself, take it to God and wait on His perfect timing and the latter part is in fact what I will do, however I have chosen to write about it here because I am sure others among us may have similar issues and we might be able to help each other.

The three cards…

One is the single sentence DMP (Definite Major Purpose).  Obviously the things I want to become and the things I want to achieve and build as a part of my DMP are not just about me, they involve an extension of my existing work and many of my current associates.

The second card…“What am I pretending not to know?”  Well clearly I thought my closest associates would greet my proposals with excitement and faith but it is now obvious that I was pretending not to know they would hold on to their comfort zone for dear life whilst thinking I have gone crazy.

There would be a financial cost to get the ball rolling on my ideas and though it is one we are well able to meet I do think it is stumbling block. There are certain signs, things that are said, when money becomes the biggest issue and they have been shown as evidence. I am sorry to report that we claim to believe that our God will supply all of our needs and that He owns the cattle on a thousand hills and that the silver and the gold all belongs to Him. We quote that the treasures of the wicked are laid up for the righteous and then as soon as we are challenged with a financial risk we collapse like a house of cards. When will we realise that faith is an act?

Actually I am pretty sure the majority of the group would be excited to at least explore the possibilities and it is just a few who would stand in the way of progress, but I don’t feel it would be right to go over the heads of these few. They deserve respect and honour: they are good, well intentioned people and I will not dishonour them at any time.

So we come to the third card…“What would the person I intend to become do next?” 

The person I was would certainly be very angry and push through for his own way and if people were hurt along the way then it was for the greater good. Thankfully Machiavelli is dead and the person I intend to become is Whole, Perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy…although right now I must confess I am not feeling happy at all…but I will be patient like nature…giving thanks in everything and although I see the window of opportunity closing the principle of love must prevail. God can keep the window open or blow away the wall if need be.

This MMA group has been wonderfully encouraging all along but now it is not encouragement I seek but wise council. I am sure I am not the only one among us who feels they have outgrown some of their associates. It is not their fault they have not been along with us for the ride is it?  However the next step for me is to learn how to help them make the leap, how to communicate across the canyon and rebuild bridges that bring them on without me having to go back.

In the meantime I will not fear, for He is with me; I will not be dismayed, for He is my God. He will strengthen me and help me; He will uphold me…

32 thoughts on “After many steps forward what happens when you take a step back? MKMMA Wk 20”

    1. Yes Rita, you are right of course, maybe I should have given them time before writing the post, but there is no danger of them reading it so I thought it might help others. I can’t be the only fish who feels he has outgrown his tank. But unless I go all the way back to the drawing board with my DMP I really have to work with them. Thats no hardship to me, I do want us to succeed together but for now I will mediate on Paul’s words. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

  1. I am happy when I read that you are not happy with just ticking over. You have great things in your DMP and they will require great actions. You will make a massive difference to many people, you have already changed my future and I thank you for it.

    1. Thanks Richard…you really bless me. I know you put my blog forward for blog of the week. Wasn’t the webinar great, it answered all the questions I raised in the blog. Talk about a word on time.

  2. Joshua 1:9 ►Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” I commend you for your courage and patience! Use the sit! Get still and keep listening to that still small voice! This is the gravel that is grinding out your flour!

  3. You are right to be apprehensive, Robert, and it’s not fun when there’s (what I assume) a time crunch involved. I can’t pretend to know what ‘counsel’ would work best for you but I’ll tell you what I would most likely do in a situation like yours – Be Kind, and SMILE-it makes them wonder what you know that they don’t! Maybe they won’t catch on this time around, but your authenticity will come through and you will create respect and curiosity coming your way. Let us know how you fare, ok?

    1. Thanks Rob, I will keep you informed but I have already changed the way I look at things since last nights webinar. Applying the Law of Dual Thought is very useful.

  4. “God can keep the window open or blow away the wall.” Wise words. It’s not always easy when those close to us do not understand the journey and I’ve come to realize that they don’t have to. I can attach any feeling to my life as I desire. I have chosen to be non-attached to the outcome. Do my best, live in my own personal integrity and allow others to choose the same. You’ll know what to do and I’ve realized for self that some people can stay in my heart and not necessarily in my life. One mantra I use is ” I pronounce you good and release you in love. Over and over when confronted with a difficult person or situation. Ironically either the person steps up to my vibe, the situation changes to my vibe or it/they leave my experience.
    I love your candid and compassionate post. It is said that Faith without works is dead and I see this post as the work. You’ve expressed all for everyone to see that you are not holding misplaced feelings.. you are walking your talk with love. LOVE and faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. (Those seeming obstacles with people, places or things/ideas) BELIEVE! I am Happy for your growth. Leading by example!
    Also, when one door closes another will open…perhaps more grandeur and better things are on the horizon. Thank you for reaching out. Hope my words support and help.

  5. Rob,

    Thanks for sharing. It is with much effort sometimes that we bring others around. And love is our greatest weapon. I heard a story about my dad once. He confronted someone concerning an issue about which he felt very strong. After the rather pointed discussion, my dad asked if he could pray for the other person. HE then proceeded to pray for that person, their family, for their blessing and protection. He prayed without reference to their disagreement but for the good of the other person, Then he left. Needless to say the other person was stunned. It opened dialog between them and their disagreement was resolved with a new, stronger bond between the two. We must do our part and let God, or infinite intelligence, work out the details. I look forward to hearing about the resolution of this challenge.

    1. Marvellous Bill. That’s not just the answer to the question, “What would the person I intend to become do next?” it’s the answer that Charles M Sheldon asked in his book, In His Steps, “What would Jesus do?”

  6. A friend asked me the other day “whose dream are you building?” I had just told him I had made the decision to make a change in the business opportunity I will pursue in the future. I was having a hard time with it because an associate with whom I worked was a good friend and I was reluctant to “let her down”. In fact my initial involvement was more a favour to her than a desire on my part. So the question made me focus on where my priorities should lie as I build my future. To be of help to those I serve I must first look after myself.

  7. I was so excited about having a “blog,” and I shared it with everyone. My mom was offended. Then she wrote me a “nice” letter about how she doesn’t appreciate that I ‘drank the kook-aid,’ and ‘where did my daughter go?’ I actually celebrated the letter even though it was somewhat shocking that something I was soooo excited about would OFFEND her! Then I realized.. HA! This is PERFECT! This is a sign that I am finding my own way. She will have a choice to love me or not. And her choice has ZERO to do with my choices. All I can be is ME! And I know that I will find more and more people to be around who support and love me for who I am. Right now, it’s pretty much the master key and my business and my immediate family and that’s right where I want to be for the moment.

    1. Why would anyone be upset about you having a blog? I thought it was going to be a real hardship when we started but now I find it so liberating. Thanks for your comments.

  8. Those we know best want us to stay the way we were because they are comfortable with it. It is good to see you hanging on to the Master Keys and staying strong. There are always challenges along the way, it is how we respond to them that tells a lot about us. You know you will be better by staying focused on your compass. It may be hard and some will come around when they see you continue to grow and some will not. Love them and release them. Perhaps they will come around one day.

    1. Yes but wasn’t the grist illustration so appropriate on this weeks webinar? It made me think of Jesus saying to Peter, “Satan has asked to have you to sift you as wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith might not fail.” He never said I will take you out of the sifting, but I pray you will be able to go through it in faith.

  9. Rob, thanks for your courage and vulnerability in sharing this post with us. If not already, I suspect many of us in the MMA will encounter experiences similar to yours as we grow to become our future self – that person we are intended to be! I share a prayer from Marianne Williamson that has helped me: “Dear God, I surrender this situation to you. May it be used for your purposes. I ask only that my heart be open to give love and receive love. May all the results unfold according to your will. Amen.”

  10. Answering the 2 questions, What am I pretending not to know? and What would the person I intend to be do next? both can put a lot in motion. Maybe the motion at the particular moment is not the right moment. I am grateful I read your story along with all the awesome thoughts that followed, as I am having a hard time facing my own answers to those questions.

  11. This is Awesome! Stand Strong! My friends and family think that I have gone crazy, too. Many of them are not speaking to me anymore, as they simply just don’t understand. They want the old, pushover Brenda back. Say it isn’t so! It’s not going to happen. I absolutely Adore the New Me! Those nasty Peptides try and try to pull me back into the darkness, but they DO not win, because I AM pulling back. Thank You for sharing your eloquent words with all of us here. It is great to KNOW that we are never alone in this Amazing Journey.

    1. Thanks Brenda… I dusted myself off and pushed back my shoulders and am ready to go again. They big reveal took a lot of people by surprise but they will take a few little peaks to get used to it until they can gaze upon the whole big picture.

  12. Rob, thank you for sharing this. I simply would like to say I can relate to the sense of loss in not being on the same page with important close relationships. I feel for you. I have always had a drive within me to grow, not ever realizing a thing about the seven laws of the mind. The Law of Growth is a part of who I am by definition. Before this class I did not understand that these laws existed. They explain so much for my hungry mal nourished brain. I grew up with six older siblings, most of whom I never had a chance to know. My second oldest brother never fit in with the rest of my family, not even my mother or father. I always felt I was the only sibling he had who even liked him. My siblings did not accept him because he thought differently. Over the past 37 years we may have talked with each other a dozen times. Recently I found out he’s been reading Og Mandino, Emerson, and the like for most of his adult life. I always believed he was intelligent and found him very interesting. I’m so glad I’m in this class. I get to learn and grow with like minded people. I’m thinking the pain of not being able to be of the same understanding with those we love goes back to our need to feel safe with those who are important to us. We all want to be loved and understood. Your gift to them is your forbearance. I will lift you up in my prayers for a speedy resolve. Given time I believe they will be able to grasp the value of what you are presenting them.

    1. Stick in there Rebecca… maybe we are the pioneers to lead them all along the path of discovery. Some may take longer than others and some may not come at all but we must remain faithful.

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