Switching to the next scroll in Og’s Greatest Salesman was a bit of a challenge. Scroll 2 was flowing off the tongue and I almost didn’t want to leave it.
Then I read “each day I am tested by life in like manner”, like the bull being pricked by the picadors lance and just when I thought everything was going swimmingly it is almost as if I asked for this phrase to manifest. Someone told me just the day before that Mike Tyson is famous for saying “everyone has a plan till they get punched in the face” I laughed but not for long because the punch came the very next day.
Well the only thing I can say is I must be up to the test. I have grown in these last 10 weeks and perhaps the test that would have floored me for weeks previously knocked me back for about an hour. I was able to use the Law of Substitution quickly and to great effect.
I find I really am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. I have been speaking that over my life but there have been a few other people this last week who need it more than me so I have been speaking it over them too. I even made a card all colourful for one person who is very dear to me. I wrote the law of substitution on one side and an explanation that he should turn the card over and read the other side as his thoughts began to wander down that road into depression. I had written the words, whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy in big bold letter in several crayons colours filling the whole card. He looked at me as if I were from another planet or a child just out of a craft class. I am neither, I am his dad and I love him every much and it was hurting me to see him lying for over 30 days in a hospital bed and beginning to lose his mind. Crazy Dad or not he was out of hospital and home with his wife three days later. It matters not a jot to me if he thinks these things are off the wall, I have more than enough faith for both of us.
It didn’t stop me getting punched in the face though and reading and also listening to Haanel week 10 I have to take the blame. I broke the polarity! I cut myself off from the source with wrong thinking. My relationship with my creator was damaged for a little while and the flow just stopped. Maybe you think God is not like that, but you would be wrong to think that. We had a discussion about it.
He said “Think about you and your son…He does something right in front of you that he knows you don’t like, how do you feel?
Well I don’t feel particularly good about it, in fact I am saddened by it.
You feel sadness and let down right, and do you want to bless him with good things at that moment.
Well not at that moment no, actually I want to shout but I resist.
But is he still your son? or is your relationship ended?…
NO OF COURSE HE IS STILL MY SON…
and do you still love him?
YES MY LOVE IS NOT AFFECTED AT ALL.
But do you want the rift between you healed?
And what does he need to do to make that happen?
STOP, TURN away from what he is dong, Ask for FORGIVENESS.
And how long will you wait before you grant him forgiveness?
“I WILL NOT WAIT not even for a second, my forgiveness will be immediate as soon as he fulfils the conditions. STOP- TURN-ASK”
And that is exactly how I feel about you…So I repented which is one word for stop and turn and I asked forgiveness, I accepted that the pain of the punch in the face was worth it. The flow was restored, the lesson learned.
After all these years how could I not have understood that God is bound by his own words. How can I have thought I could do something that offends Him right in front of His face and expect him to let it pass.
He loves me far too much to do that. I will greet each day with love in my heart even if the day brings tests and trials because I know they only make me stronger.